I can still see the tears in your eyes. I put them there, and all these years later I see them, swimming and falling down your cheeks.

And here I am again, hurting you. I need to leave you alone, before I do damage that no one can repair. It will crush my soul to walk away again, destroy the little bit of me left in me, but I owe it to you.

My heart aches still

Its been half a year since I lost you, six months you have been gone. And yet, my heart aches every day. I still call your name before I remember you are gone, and then I cry again.

Your smile, the way you kept me warm, the way you loved to make me laugh, all these things are missing from my life. I ache to be near you, to hold you, to kiss you. I just want to run my fingers through your hair again and hear your sigh of contentment while I do it.

I want to curl up beside you on the bed, wrapping my arms around you and putting my head on your chest to hear your heart beating slowly and steadily. To listen to your even breathing. To sleep knowing that you keep me safe, always safe.

I will never forget you. I will always remember our time together with love and I will always ache wishing we had just one more day.

My best friend, I still love you. Death took you from me, but my heart knows that some day we will be together again and then I promise...

We will play fetch, and I will feed you from the table, and you can take up more than half the bed, and I will take you walking every day, and we will be happy again. I miss you girl, I will always miss you.